Troubled, Demonized ‘Ministerial’ Leaders…Past, Present, and…, Part 2

In my last article, I presented the ‘cases,’ if you will, of preachers who battled their demons.  Some won, some are winning, and some have lost their battles.

This type of thing is not talked about in what is known as the church, and that is a dangerous thing.  The very secretiveness surrounding the maladies preachers suffer with in their secret, personal lives leaves open a wide gateway into these people for the enemy to operate, infiltrate and conquer.

Many look at this and say it is disrespectful or gossipy.  When we who claim to be ‘in ministry’ or ‘called into the ministry’ need to examine this phenomena…and see what can be done so that the enemy does not take more lives.

It should not be that in the day and time we live in that preachers who we see everyday-whether that be on TV, the Internet or in person-should NOT suffer in silence with mental illness.  The shame is NOT in having the mental illness.  The shame is in NOT getting help.

First, let’s get the stigma out of the way attached to mental illness.

We tend to think that if someone is diagnosed with a mental illness, then it can only be ‘prayed through.’  Shouted out.  Danced out.  Prophesied out.  Slain in the Spirit…and POOF!  Bye bye demons!

This is just what the enemy WANTS you to believe.

Many of the (prayer and Deliverance) practices done in churches today are INEFFECTIVE.  This is why preachers can preach…and be totally oppressed maybe even possessed by demons.  The devil knows how to preach, too!  Religious demons masquerading as angels of lights, performing miracles, speaking in tongues, prophesying, laying hands on folks and causing them to be ‘slain in the spirit’ are fooling MANY in the I.C. today.  TRUE deliverance is NOT taking place at these altars, but merely the transferance of evil spirits.

I do believe this is how mental illness is spreading so rapidly-much like HIV is in the black community-in the I.C.

In all the cases that I have presented, the ones that survived are the ones that sought help-and who were HONEST about their struggle.  Period.  They didn’t hide behind a title or a position or some perceived authority.  They recognized that they had some things going on inside of them and had to BE ACCOUNTABLE and SEEK HELP.  As uncomfortable as it may have been, these popular, highly sought after preachers had to submit themselves WHOLLY to the therapy and scrutiny of another.  They didn’t just ‘pray it away.’  They submitted to EFFECTIVE help and was (or IS) being delivered from their demons.  They admitted to having demons.  But not only that, they did (and are doing) whatever it takes to walk in deliverance day by day.

The ones who perished in their struggles with demonic oppression were the ones who either attempted to hide behind their religion, their ministry, their public persona and image or who simply gave up the fight and gave in to becoming a walking habitation of demons.

Or they didn’t submit themselves to TRUE, AUTHENTIC deliverance ministry!

I entitled this series, ‘Troubled, Demonized Ministerial Leaders…Past, Present and …’ because the fact of the matter is, as long as there are people who are afraid to admit they have demons they struggle with-or even go as far as to deny that demonic activity going on in their lives…or don’t recognize it as demonic, then YES, in the FUTURE…Past, Present AND FUTURE…we will continue to see leaders who are demonically oppressed or possessed.  Some will die, and others will live, solely for the purpose of spreading their demons to unsuspecting congregations and followers who failed to try the spirits and ultimately to LEAVE the I.C.

If you are a leader and you are struggling with your demons (and only YOU and God knows what they are), don’t suffer in silence.  Don’t stay disheartened, resigned to live with your demons for another day.  DELIVERANCE IS AVAILABLE TO YOU!

There is a dedicated staff at Sheppard’s Counseling Center ready to minister to you in a loving, non-judgmental-yet confidential AND professional manner.

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Troubled, Demonized ‘Ministerial’ Leaders…Past, Present, and…

When it comes to mental illness and the church, no one really talks about the reality of mental illness within the church.  Just like sex, drugs, and other maladies that are realities in the church, mental illness is a taboo topic.  Especially within the pentecostal and charismatic ranks, it is commonly taught and believed that if you are believed to be ‘saved, sanctified and Holy Ghost filled,’ that you cannot and will not suffer from mental illness.  That you will not have breakdowns.

And nothing could be further from the truth.

I have often wondered why leaders in the I.C. would stay away from teaching the people about mental illness.  They treat it like it’s not there.  They may dabble with preaching on depression, but depression is only a symptom of much deeper issues.

Then it began to occur to me that the reason why leaders stayed away from this topic was possibly because they are dealing with the exact same thing-mental illness-as the flock, and therefore, didn’t feel comfortable teaching on it…because they were in need of deliverance themselves.

If you research, you will be amazed at the number of denominational and church leaders and preachers who, in fact, suffered from some sort of mental illness themselves…and, for some, it even cost their lives.

Aimee Semple McPherson

‘Sister Aimee’ was a very famous evangelist who founded the Foursquare Church, opened the Angelus Temple in 1923 and is singlehandedly responsible for being one of the first people to ‘spread the gospel’ across the airwaves via the radio, suffered a mental breakdown in 1930.  She later died in 1944 from an accidental overdose of prescription barbituates.

A. A. Allen

Asa A. Allen was a healing and faith pentecostal evangelist that traveled across the country running healing lines and having very exuberant church services.  Allen, who started out in the Assemblies of God denomination, opened a TV ministry that continued to grow up until his death in 1971 from liver failure due to acute alcoholism.  Allen had been an alcoholic for  years and fellow preachers often stated that they had to cover for Allen because sometimes he was too drunk to minister.

C. H. Mason

COGIC founder Charles Harrison Mason founded the denomination in 1897.  COGIC, the 4th largest denomination and claiming millions of followers today, was one of the many (pentecostal) denominations that sprung out of the Azusa Street ‘revival’ in 1906.  It has been reported that Mason suffered from some sort of mental illness; one instance, he was said to be walking the streets of Tennessee naked, preaching to the air.  In an audio clip here (fast forward to 2:37), you can hear Mason ‘preach.’ In listening to this clip, one has to wonder if it was the Holy Ghost moving on him to speak, or was it ‘another spirit.’ Mason died of natural causes in 1961 at the age of 95.

Zachary Tims

Many of us know of Zachary Tims.  He was a regular host of the ‘Praise The Lord’ program and founded New Destiny Christian Center in 1996.  He battled drug addiction and had claimed he was delivered from drugs.  But on August 12 of last year, Tims was found dead in a hotel room with an envelope containing cocaine.  Tims’ autopsy results have been sealed by request of his mother from the general public.  Listen here (fast forward to 9:19) as Tims almost prophesies his own death a little over a month before he died.

Barry Keldie

Barry Keldie was the pastor of Providence Church (with ties to the Acts 29 Network and the Southern Baptist Convention) in 2005 in Frisco, TX.  To many, he seemed like a happy, well-adjusted father, pastor, husband, and friend.  But he battled chronic insomnia, that led to an addiction to sleeping pills during his pastorate.  At 31 years of age in 2010, Keldie accidentally overdosed on Tylenol PM.

Paul Morton

Having to his credit the Full Gospel Baptist Fellowship, Morton oversees thousands of full gospel churches nationwide.  He is also the founder of two churches, one based in New Orleans, the other in Atlanta.  Paul Morton is very popular among the pentecostal and charismatic ranks, often asked to preach (and sing) at many conferences.  Yet, at the height of his ministerial career, Morton describes in his book ‘Why Kingdoms Fall’ his mental breakdown.  Click here (fast forward to 3:57) to hear him testify about his mental breakdown. Morton is still the Presiding Prelate of the Full Gospel Baptist Fellowship today and claims to have been ‘delivered’ from bipolar disorder.  In his book, Morton claims he sought medical help. He credits prayer, love and support and supernatural healing for his deliverance.

George Bloomer

George Bloomer is known in the church world as an expert on demons and deliverance.  He is the founder and pastor of Bethel Family Worship Center in Durham, NC.  He is also a very popular preacher in christendom, much sought after and highly recommended by those who advocate and believe in deliverance.  Bloomer testifies about his life pre-salvation, which included drug addiction.  Bloomer claims he suffered a mental breakdown and became addicted to Prozac, all while preaching across the nation.  Click here (fast forward to 7:34) to see Bloomer ask the question ‘if a preacher can be crazy?’  Click here for Bloomer’s full testimony on his addiction to the prescription drug Prozac.

Juanita Bynum

Juanita Bynum is a household name.  There is no one who doesn’t know what she has done in the church world.  She first came on the scene when she preached at TD Jakes’ conference for women ‘Woman, Thou Art Loosed’ in 1997 a sermon series called ‘No More Sheets,’ chronicling her struggle with sexual purity.  In that series, she briefly talked about her struggles with mental illness.  But her ‘spiritual mother,’ Apostle Veter Nichols, goes into detail about Bynums’ struggles in her book, ‘Birthing of A Prophet.’  Nichols tells of Bynum having a nervous breakdown, her numerous suicide attempts due to relationship troubles and breakups, her struggles with anorexia nervosa and schizophrenia-all while ‘in ministry.’  When Bynum and her ex-husband Thomas Weeks got in a physical altercation on August 21, 2007, Bynum confessed that she had to seek therapy.  She is reportedly doing well and still ministering across the world.

Sam Kinison

Samuel B. Kinison is known to the world as the loud, brass comedian who became infamous for his ‘in-your-face’ style, controversial topics and how could you forget ‘the scream?’ What most don’t realize is that before becoming a famous comedian, Kinison was a pentecostal preacher out of an unknown pentecostal denomination.  He was known for his ‘fire and brimstone’ type of preaching. Click here to hear a sample of his preaching.  His ‘act’ changed drastically when he left the church.  I won’t post clips from his comedy act in that most of his comedy  was raunchy and replete with cursing…and may seem extremely blasphemous to most.  What I hear is was someone who didnt seek healing and deliverance after leaving the I.C.  After leaving the ministry and the I.C., unfortunately, Kinison did not maintain or seek a relationship with God and, as a result- even though he enjoyed much success as an actor and a much-sought-after comedian-he battled depression and drug addiction pretty much until his untimely death in 1992.

I have highlighted these who were and some still are active in ministry to bring up some points about how real mental illness is in the ministry.  It is not talked about, and it should be.

Stay tuned to part 2…

Ebook Self Counseling In 2012




The primary message in “Recovery in Christ”  is that behind every outward manifestation of weakness or dysfunction, there is a root cause. It should also be understood that at times the root cause for your behavior may be grounded in mental and/or emotional conflicts that you are not conscious of. Your mind is a major component of you soul. Your soul is a mixture of your emotions, your mind and your will. Where your mind is concerned, a thought is a means to activate your intellect. The intellect is the seat of reasoning. As your body has a built-in system to eliminate wastes, the intellectual activity of your mind controls your thoughts. Thought life is extremely important because your personality and character is reflected in the way you think.


The more steadfastly you fix your mind on a particular thought, the thought then becomes “an imagination.” The stronger the “imagination,” the closer you come to taking the action that the particular thought suggested. You can determined how close you are to making a mistake by monitoring your thoughts. In most cases, the innermost voice of the spirit will break through to your mind and tell you not to take the particular action you were about to take. However, if you are out of touch with your spirit, you will generally yield to the thoughts of your mind. If your reasoning is defective, your thoughts can manipulate you in a negative manner. For example, consider the person who thinks: “I can shoot heroin just once and I won’t get hooked or I can take just one drink and I will be okay.” Such a thought will bring about an action that will ultimately produce a major repercussion.


Rationalizations and justifications are the products of an unrenewed mind. In such cases, you make excuses for yourself by blaming others. In order to correct the thoughts of your mind, you must take the following actions:


1. open your intellect to examination by being honest with yourself;

I won't be double minded in 2012!


2. stop a thought in mid-stream and analyze it;


3. change the words of your mouth;


4. say “no” to that thought, out loud if necessary.


People who negotiate life through their minds are very often confused or “doubleminded.” A doubleminded person is unstable in all of his or her ways. (James 1:8) Such a person will use the world’s standards of money, status, clothes and the like to prove to himself that he is valuable. A doubleminded person compares himself to others. He has a “grass is greener on the other side of the street” mentality, and therefore, is never satisfied. This lack of satisfaction causes such a one to place impossible demands on the people who love him or her. He also seeks to fill his inner unrest or dissatisfaction with immediate gratification by fulfilling the lust of his flesh. Furthermore, the doubleminded will minimize or exaggerate the facts when discussing his life of pleasure-seeking.


People who are doubleminded also tend to be procrastinators. They “reason” that something that ought to be done now, can be done later. For example, such a person will stay in an unsatisfying relationship because he is so consumed by his thoughts that he is out of touch with how he really FEELS. His thoughts tell him that he should not forsake the present relationship until he has found a romantic replacement. “A bird in the hand is better than one that is in the bush.”


Out of touch with his emotions, the “doubleminded” will reason in his mind that he is “in love.” His feelings become so disguised, that he loses the ability to be genuinely affectionate. He reasons that to be emotional is to be too “soft”. In an effort to emotionally survive, he may hide his real self from others. Such behavior creates an emotional blindness, where the doubleminded person is out of touch with his own true feelings. For example, the “macho” image is rooted in masculine hardness as a way to avoid painful feelings. You may need to rediscover your emotions by quieting your thoughts long enough to feel what you need to feel.


A person who acts from the emotions cares neither for principle nor for reason, but only for his feeling. Under the power of the emotions, the mind becomes undependable. With a powerless mind, you cannot distinguish between right and wrong. Consider the person who tries to collect his emotional debts from the opposite sex because someone of that sex hurt him in a previous relationship. In this regard, some men hate all women because their mothers hurt them. Similarly, some women hate or distrust all men because some man in their past hurt or betrayed them, ie, a father, brother, friend, etc


Rooted in emotional dysfunctions, repetitive scenarios become habitual re-plays, where similar patterns evolve in every relationship. Unable to break this emotional cycle, the emotionally disabled person cannot trust other people and therefore does not make lasting commitments in a relationship. It is difficult for such a person to accept love from others. Whether real or imagined, feelings of victimization or rejection will lead to a need to victimize or reject others. To obtain victory over such feelings, it is important that you develop other parts of your soul, particularly the mind. To instill rational thinking, you as the caretaker of your own spiritual empowerment and recovery should realize that very often those that you are hating are not even thinking about you. They are simply moving on to a new conquest, and literally having themselves a “grand ole time.”


Anyone who makes decisions either by the influence of the mind or the emotions is usually weak in his or her will. Your will is the organ that examines, distinguishes, judges and makes decisions based upon the information received from your mind and your emotions. Choices can be enduring and long-lived. Unfortunately, you can make the decision but you cannot choose the repercussion.


The way to victory is to establish a value system or a set of principles that will be followed regardless of the emotional situation. Since feelings generated by our emotions are so changeable, we should never take any action during highly emotional times. Moreover, you should not allow any external force to create any feeling in you that is against your will. If you follow the leading of strong, negative feelings, your whole being will learn to thrive on these sensations, your willpower will be paralyzed, and your mind will become undependable.


In order to renew your mind, there are some key points that should be underscored:


1. You are what you THINK you are. Your thoughts have power to draw both positive and negative energy. If you have practiced negative “self talk”, in the same manner, you should consciously practice positive “self talk.” Positive thought will bring forth positive talk. Positive talk will bring forth the fruits of victory and success.


2. A part of renewing the soul is to learn how to deal with what is uncomfortable. Struggles and failures supply the necessary preparation. You must learn to picture in your mind a positive outcome in “all things.”


3. Once you discover what you need to learn about your own inner struggles, there are other people who will need your testimony and your influence so that they too can be victorious. A major purpose of struggling is that you can become consolers of those who are struggling in those areas where you have become triumphant. By planting new seeds of power into your minds, old patterns and habits will be destroyed. In a metaphorical context, the seeds are the “words of power.”