By Pam Sheppard
Actually, it is my experience that it is the Holy Ghost who does the leading.
My personal testimony of how I came to leave the church is in the first chapters of “Come Out of Her, God’s People”.(ebook www.lulu.com/content/10430823 and paperback www.lulu.com/content/7285131. I usually don’t promote this book because I have changed since I wrote it. Most of my life I have been open and transparent, caring less about what others had to say about me. Lately, I have become quite private and much more guarded. I call it “increased wisdom.” LOL . I personally feel today that with my testimony in “Come Out of Her, God’s People,” , I shared way too much about my intimate life. A few ignorant, jealous , ineffectual swine have taken advantage of my openness and used information they read in the book to unsuccessfully attempt to slander me. You just cant slander a person who is not bound by the world’s religious standards. Even so, I am a lot more guarded than I used to be. I However, since individuals tell me how much my testimony helped them, I have left this book on the market.
In a nutshell, it is my experience that the Holy Spirit will inform you when it is time for you to leave church. In fact, if it were not for hearing from Him, I suspect would still be there. When the Holy Spirit led me out of church, I was pastoring a work that I had founded myself. So it had never crossed my mind to completely leave the church. For a minister of the gospel to leave church after 25 years of faithful service sounded like a preposterous idea to me–absolutely inconceivable. I was settled and comfortable in the denomination, in spite of the fact that I had never really been embraced with open arms. I had the best of both worlds: spiritual covering from a well-respected denomination that left me to my own devices. So I had almost complete independence to bring forth pentecostal, word of faith teachings in a denominational setting.
So what happened? First of all, I had a dream. A very clear, significant dream where the Lord actually appeared and spoke to me. I never saw His face, only his feet and the back of His robe. I wanted to believe it was the devil because I didn’t like what I heard and saw in the spirit. I was called by name. the Spirit said “Pam, I cannot use you in this place. You are a light hidden under a bed. You MUST leave. But let them PUT you out!”
Put ME out? This MUST be the devil, I thought to myself. They can’t put me out. I have been a faithful servant in this denomination for 25 years.!!!!
Well, I did not have long to wait. I was at the Y, doing my afternoon lap swim when my pregnant daughter came waddling in and screaming “they are after you, Ma! The denomination is investigating you.” I got out of the pool, sat on its side and listened to my daughter’s emotional report. She had run into the proverbial grapevine. Yet this was not gossip. It was true. The dream was confirmed in less than a week. The denomination was setting me up to be PUT ME OUT. They targeted my website, fearful that I was exposing error among the mega preachers. I was not running a smear campaign but where there was error, I was boldly calling names. The denomination feared that I would cause them to be sued. Ironically, an enemy that I had mentored planted the seed of fear in the Bishop’s fear. He never liked me in the first place, son he grabbed that seed and ran with it.
It took 9 months. I had the dream in September 2003 and the denomination removed my name from its rolls in June 2004.It was June 25th, 2004. I had a dream that morning. I saw my head under the chopping block. I was beheaded. With that dream, it came to me that I have the same ministry as John the Baptist: Preach repentance and prepare the way for the Lord’s SECOND coming.
Anyway, I still had my church that I had founded. Because they had not embraced my church, the denomination had no authority or power to close it. So I continued leading my church, expecting the Lord to send me to another church affiliation. Various sects and word of faith churches made some offers. However, it was quite clear to me that all they wanted was my money and my attendance at their various meetings and conferences to obtain MORE money through conference fees and donations taxed my church. We were small and poor. I could not rob my own congregation to send their hard-earned dollars to an aloof, uncaring mega preacher, just to pay to sit on the front row of some conference.
So I waited 3 years. This time my sign was more powerful than a dream. I was wide awake. I heard a voice in my head ask me this question, “Pam. would you put curtains up at the windows of a condemned building?” I looked around to see if someone was there, but I was alone. I answered in my head “no.’ The voice continued.He talked for what seemed a long time. Then He said “Pam. You are planning to travel around the world to conduct deliverance training seminars in any church that will open its doors to you.” I answered, “Yes.!” By that time, I had been to a church in Lawrenceville Ga and one in Bermuda.
The voice then said “Well. Pam. conducting seminars in any church is like putting up curtains at the windows of a condemned building, I have already judged HER.”
Now I did not want to believe that my 25 years in ministry was full of sound and fury, signifying nothing. So I tried the spirits for one year. Out of it came the book called “The Fake Jesus: Fallen Angels Among Us. Even more books followed. One conversation with the Spirit of God led to a total of four more books, well over 1000 pages!!!
I gladly put 25 years of religious acts without power behind me— starting with closing the 12-year-old church that I founded. I simply put my religious past and all its fake fruit behind me, moved forward, baggage free– following the leading of the Holy Ghost. My life now is filled with peace, real power and wondrous anticipation.
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