In my last article, I presented the ‘cases,’ if you will, of preachers who battled their demons. Some won, some are winning, and some have lost their battles.
This type of thing is not talked about in what is known as the church, and that is a dangerous thing. The very secretiveness surrounding the maladies preachers suffer with in their secret, personal lives leaves open a wide gateway into these people for the enemy to operate, infiltrate and conquer.
Many look at this and say it is disrespectful or gossipy. When we who claim to be ‘in ministry’ or ‘called into the ministry’ need to examine this phenomena…and see what can be done so that the enemy does not take more lives.
It should not be that in the day and time we live in that preachers who we see everyday-whether that be on TV, the Internet or in person-should NOT suffer in silence with mental illness. The shame is NOT in having the mental illness. The shame is in NOT getting help.
First, let’s get the stigma out of the way attached to mental illness.
We tend to think that if someone is diagnosed with a mental illness, then it can only be ‘prayed through.’ Shouted out. Danced out. Prophesied out. Slain in the Spirit…and POOF! Bye bye demons!
This is just what the enemy WANTS you to believe.
Many of the (prayer and Deliverance) practices done in churches today are INEFFECTIVE. This is why preachers can preach…and be totally oppressed maybe even possessed by demons. The devil knows how to preach, too! Religious demons masquerading as angels of lights, performing miracles, speaking in tongues, prophesying, laying hands on folks and causing them to be ‘slain in the spirit’ are fooling MANY in the I.C. today. TRUE deliverance is NOT taking place at these altars, but merely the transferance of evil spirits.
I do believe this is how mental illness is spreading so rapidly-much like HIV is in the black community-in the I.C.
In all the cases that I have presented, the ones that survived are the ones that sought help-and who were HONEST about their struggle. Period. They didn’t hide behind a title or a position or some perceived authority. They recognized that they had some things going on inside of them and had to BE ACCOUNTABLE and SEEK HELP. As uncomfortable as it may have been, these popular, highly sought after preachers had to submit themselves WHOLLY to the therapy and scrutiny of another. They didn’t just ‘pray it away.’ They submitted to EFFECTIVE help and was (or IS) being delivered from their demons. They admitted to having demons. But not only that, they did (and are doing) whatever it takes to walk in deliverance day by day.
If a leader is delivered-or at the very least-seeking deliverance, then that leader should NOT be submitted to. Many believe that once a person is anointed, that they are always anointed. And that therefore justifies one or more congregations submitting to their authority because of ‘the anointing.’
I want to present to you that satan himself was anointed. The Word says he was ‘the anointed cherub.’ Having ‘an anointing’ does not mean one is right with God, neither does it somehow pre-qualify those in leadership to be submitted to, even when they are in sin or error. Paul said to follow me as I follow Christ. Many leaders-sad to say-are NOT following Christ, but their own lustful plans, desires and agendas. Once a leader strays from the will and plan of God, and won’t seek help or deliverance, then that nullifies any covenantal relationship between a ‘pastor’ and ‘the sheep.’
The leaders in this series who perished in their struggles with demonic oppression were the ones who either attempted to hide behind their religion, their ministry, their public persona and image or who simply gave up the fight and gave in to becoming a walking habitation of demons.
Or they didn’t submit themselves to TRUE, AUTHENTIC deliverance ministry!
The fact of the matter is as long as there are people who are afraid to admit they have demons they struggle with-or even go as far as to deny that demonic activity going on in their lives…or don’t recognize it as demonic, then YES, in the FUTURE…Past, Present AND FUTURE…we will continue to see leaders who are demonically oppressed or possessed. It is controversial, but it is true. Some will die, and others will live, solely for the purpose of spreading their demons to unsuspecting congregations and followers who failed to try the spirits and ultimately to LEAVE the I.C.
If you are a leader and you are struggling with your demons (and only YOU and God knows what they are), don’t suffer in silence. Don’t stay disheartened, resigned to live with your demons for another day. DELIVERANCE IS AVAILABLE TO YOU!
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When it comes to mental illness and the church, no one really talks about the reality of mental illness within the church. Just like sex, drugs, and other maladies that are realities in the church, mental illness is a taboo topic. Especially within the pentecostal and charismatic ranks, it is commonly taught and believed that if you are believed to be ‘saved, sanctified and Holy Ghost filled,’ that you cannot and will not suffer from mental illness. That you will not have breakdowns.
And nothing could be further from the truth.
I have often wondered why leaders in the I.C. would stay away from teaching the people about mental illness. They treat it like it’s not there. They may dabble with preaching on depression, but depression is only a symptom of much deeper issues.
Then it began to occur to me that the reason why leaders stayed away from this topic was possibly because they are dealing with the exact same thing-mental illness-as the flock, and therefore, didn’t feel comfortable teaching on it…because they were in need of deliverance themselves.
If you research, you will be amazed at the number of denominational and church leaders and preachers who, in fact, suffered from some sort of mental illness themselves…and, for some, it even cost their lives.
Aimee Semple McPherson
‘Sister Aimee’ was a very famous evangelist who founded the Foursquare Church, opened the Angelus Temple in 1923 and is singlehandedly responsible for being one of the first people to ‘spread the gospel’ across the airwaves via the radio, suffered a mental breakdown in 1930. She later died in 1944 from an accidental overdose of prescription barbituates.
A. A. Allen
Asa A. Allen was a healing and faith pentecostal evangelist that traveled across the country running healing lines and having very exuberant church services. Allen, who started out in the Assemblies of God denomination, opened a TV ministry that continued to grow up until his death in 1971 from liver failure due to acute alcoholism. Allen had been an alcoholic for years and fellow preachers often stated that they had to cover for Allen because sometimes he was too drunk to minister.
C. H. Mason
COGIC founder Charles Harrison Mason founded the denomination in 1897. COGIC, the 4th largest denomination and claiming millions of followers today, was one of the many (pentecostal) denominations that sprung out of the Azusa Street ‘revival’ in 1906. It has been reported that Mason suffered from some sort of mental illness; one instance, he was said to be walking the streets of Tennessee naked, preaching to the air. In an audio clip here (fast forward to 2:37), you can hear Mason ‘preach.’ In listening to this clip, one has to wonder if it was the Holy Ghost moving on him to speak, or was it ‘another spirit.’ Mason died of natural causes in 1961 at the age of 95.
Many of us know of Zachary Tims. He was a regular host of the ‘Praise The Lord’ program and founded New Destiny Christian Center in 1996. He battled drug addiction and had claimed he was delivered from drugs. But on August 12 of last year, Tims was found dead in a hotel room with an envelope containing cocaine. Tims’ autopsy results have been sealed by request of his mother from the general public. Listen here (fast forward to 9:19) as Tims almost prophesies his own death a little over a month before he died.
Barry Keldie was the pastor of Providence Church (with ties to the Acts 29 Network and the Southern Baptist Convention) in 2005 in Frisco, TX. To many, he seemed like a happy, well-adjusted father, pastor, husband, and friend. But he battled chronic insomnia, that led to an addiction to sleeping pills during his pastorate. At 31 years of age in 2010, Keldie accidentally overdosed on Tylenol PM.
Having to his credit the Full Gospel Baptist Fellowship, Morton oversees thousands of full gospel churches nationwide. He is also the founder of two churches, one based in New Orleans, the other in Atlanta. Paul Morton is very popular among the pentecostal and charismatic ranks, often asked to preach (and sing) at many conferences. Yet, at the height of his ministerial career, Morton describes in his book ‘Why Kingdoms Fall’ his mental breakdown. Click here (fast forward to 3:57) to hear him testify about his mental breakdown. Morton is still the Presiding Prelate of the Full Gospel Baptist Fellowship today and claims to have been ‘delivered’ from bipolar disorder. In his book, Morton claims he sought medical help. He credits prayer, love and support and supernatural healing for his deliverance.
George Bloomer is known in the church world as an expert on demons and deliverance. He is the founder and pastor of Bethel Family Worship Center in Durham, NC. He is also a very popular preacher in christendom, much sought after and highly recommended by those who advocate and believe in deliverance. Bloomer testifies about his life pre-salvation, which included drug addiction. Bloomer claims he suffered a mental breakdown and became addicted to Prozac, all while preaching across the nation. Click here (fast forward to 7:34) to see Bloomer ask the question ‘if a preacher can be crazy?’ Click here for Bloomer’s full testimony on his addiction to the prescription drug Prozac (fast forward to 20 minutes into recording).
Juanita Bynum is a household name. There is no one who doesn’t know what she has done in the church world. She first came on the scene when she preached at TD Jakes’ conference for women ‘Woman, Thou Art Loosed’ in 1997 a sermon series called ‘No More Sheets,’ chronicling her struggle with sexual purity. In that series, she briefly talked about her struggles with mental illness. But her ‘spiritual mother,’ Apostle Veter Nichols, goes into detail about Bynums’ struggles in her book, ‘Birthing of A Prophet.’ Nichols tells of Bynum having a nervous breakdown, her numerous suicide attempts due to relationship troubles and breakups, her struggles with anorexia nervosa and schizophrenia-all while ‘in ministry.’ When Bynum and her ex-husband Thomas Weeks got in a physical altercation on August 21, 2007, Bynum confessed that she had to seek therapy. She is reportedly doing well and still ministering across the world.
Samuel B. Kinison is known to the world as the loud, brass comedian who became infamous for his ‘in-your-face’ style, controversial topics and how could you forget ‘the scream?’ What most don’t realize is that before becoming a famous comedian, Kinison was a pentecostal preacher out of an unknown pentecostal denomination. He was known for his ‘fire and brimstone’ type of preaching. Click here to hear a sample of his preaching. His ‘act’ changed drastically when he left the church. I won’t post clips from his comedy act in that most of his comedy was raunchy and replete with cursing…and may seem extremely blasphemous to most. What I hear is was someone who didnt seek healing and deliverance after leaving the I.C. After leaving the ministry and the I.C., unfortunately, Kinison did not maintain or seek a relationship with God and, as a result- even though he enjoyed much success as an actor and a much-sought-after comedian-he battled depression and drug addiction pretty much until his untimely death in 1992.
I have highlighted these who were and some still are active in ministry to bring up some points about how real mental illness is in the ministry. It is not talked about, and it should be.
Stay tuned to part 2…
Only God knows how many frustrated mega-preacher wannabees there are out there. Oh, I know your heart real well. I used to be just like YOU! You may have been lusting after the prosperity, power and prestige of the megas. The demon assigned to me tried to convince me that I was to be rich and famous but I woke up and smelled the Lord’s end time coffee. Perhaps Satan has deceived you into believing that you are the next up and coming TD Jakes, Juanita Bynum, or perhaps you are the next Billy Graham or Joyce Meyer. The religious devil assigned to you will whisper in your ear and lie to you in your dreams and visions. He follows you 24/7 and he has taken book on you so he knows if you have been weak to self glory, pride and ambition.
The truth of the matter is that megadom has really “seen its day.” God has no need for anymore mega preachers. In fact, don’t be surprised to discover that it was not the anointing of God that made the mega’s famous. Nor was it their faith. As quiet as it has been kept, there are megas who have even been secretly “bankrolled” by the rich and the powerful within the Illuminati.
There are those who are feverishly trying to save the institutional house called “church,” through evangelistic programs and revivals, church reformation attempts, mass media marketing campaigns, and ecumenical collaborations and compromises.
These are those who believe that emphasis should be placed on saving the institution of the organized church. However, I believe the Lord’s declaration of the prevailing power of the church was not referring to her as an institution, but as a spiritual body of believers who, by not denying His name and keeping the faith, would remain His. The question is not whether or not the burning house SHOULD be saved.
No, the question goes a lot deeper. The question is “CAN the burning house be saved?” Quite frankly, sin and deception have permeated the house so deeply, that only a profound, deep move of repentance and contrition can save the organized church. As Jesus declared to the 7 churches in the book of Revelation, “Remember therefore, from whence thou art fallen, and REPENT, and do the first works, or else I will come unto thee quickly, and will remove thy candlestick from its place, except thou REPENT.” (Revelation 2:5) Since He clearly states that the candlestick is a metaphor for the church, it is apparent that Jesus Himself will bring down the organized church system, the entire thing known today as “church.” However, the most important question to ask today is “has the opportunity for the church to repent expired?”
Well, I believe it has. For three reasons.
First of all, too many preachers, even the sincere ones, have made ministry a career rather than a calling. They can’t repent because their pocketbooks are tied to church donations. Unlike TD Jakes, Juanita Bynum, Joyce Meyer and Joel Osteen, they did not make themselves independently wealthy from the donations of churchfolk who gave them their start in the first place, a foundation they usurped and became best selling authors. The livelihood of most full time pastors is dependent upon continuing to do whatever they can to pay their bills and provide food on their tables and care for their families with something left for retirement. Most pastors can’t come out of the church simply because they would experience financial ruin in a failing economy.
Secondly, repentance would necessitate a fundamental change in how the gospel is preached. Preachers are proud folk. They would rather confess to some kind of sin of the flesh before admitting that preaching a decisional, come to the altar and accept Jesus, repeat a sinner’s prayer gospel has caused people to invite the fake Jesus into their hearts.
Thirdly, I suspect pulpits have already been taken over by religious demons and devils. The grip of these unseen forces has occurred because God Himself has sent forth a spirit of strong delusion, causing churchfolk to believe a lie. Preachers, even good, sincere, righteous men and women are already under the power of seducing spirits whose doctrines they continue to preach.
So it is time to come out. If I am wrong, you can go back. I suggest that you simply ask the Lord in prayer, “Say Lord, is this woman, Pam Sheppard correct? Are the days of the organized church “done?” Is it a dangerous place? Should I leave?
I can tell you that if you ask Him sincerely and you are willing to obey His answer to you, then I can tell you right now that He is going to show you Himself, that you need to come out for your own safety.
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